Thursday, 31 January 2008

• Love/Hate Relationship with Food

  I feel like throwing up when my stomach is empty, so I have to eat to get feeling better, but the last thing I want to do when I feel sick is eat food!

  At about four and a half weeks, I started to feel nauseous. At first, it was just a dizzy, weak feeling when I didn't have enough in my belly. But then, it became a nauseous, ralphy feeling which made me not want 95% of the things we had in the house to eat. Here's a list of some of the things I couldn't stand the thought of:

  cheese
  milk
  hamburgers
  asparagus (I made soup with that in it, then never wanted to see/hear/smell it again!)
  eggs (except hard boiled)
  pollo a la brasa (a rotisserie kind of chicken here)
  cereal (or anything related to milk)
  steak
  boiled or really plain chicken
  
  So here are some of the things that have kept me alive:
  
  oranges and lemons
  ramen noodles (but I can only take so much at a time)
  Chenoah's corndog casserole
  ice or ice water
  the thought of popsicles (I still haven't gotten my hands on any though, except the ones Grace made)
  boiled eggs
  apples
  the thought of cheezits! (there aren't any down here!)
  or the thought of goldfish crackers! (those either!)
  watermelon with lemon on it
  40% of the food found in Chenoah's house

  So, I've developed a love/hate relationship with food. When I find something that satisfies, I feel victorious. But twenty minutes later, when the ralphyness returns, I get angry because I have to face the pantry once again. I have no sense of control, and even less options of getting the kind of things I want! (Why are there no goldfish crackers or miracle whip or peanut butter or kid's cuisine frozen dinners down here!?)

  But, I might say, to end on a happy note, that this fight with Food and its friend/enemy Ralphyness has brought the best out of my hubby and good lady friends down here. They never tire of trying to suggest foods I might like, and they'd walk a half mile to make a run (or a walk) to the grocery store to get me what's just right.
  

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